1. |
I Had it All
02:06
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I had it all
I had it all
And now it's gone
And now it's gone
You try to tell me that nothing everything means something
Well not everything means nothing, either
Because if it did, then we wouldn't be here
I swear I'll be just fine
I've always been okay on my own
It's never been easier to wear my heart on my sleeve
So just smile, do your part and fade away
I'll just live in denial, play the part and hope for surprise
The best I can offer is that I'll at least say all the right lines
Cus' I had it all
I had it all
And now it's gone
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2. |
Delicate Vanity
04:06
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Concrete moon
Alcohol
All the friends that you couldn't call
Too much time
Overhaul
The life that you pretend goes so well
Are you beyond pride?
Stealing the show
Diverting attention
Directing the flow
Never let them know
They've outgrown you
Late night hysterics
Were always overblown
Predictable
Help refused
All the friends that you abused
So little time
Accused
Of never really moving past the starting line
What are you so afraid of?
Stealing the show
Diverting attention
Directing the flow
Never let them know
They've outgrown you
Late night hysterics
Were always overblown
Delicate vanity
It's a plea for some sanity
To hide the truth, to cling to young
I never said I was pulling punches
Stealing the show
Diverting attention
Directing the flow
Never let them know
They've outgrown you
Late night hysterics
Were always overblown
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3. |
Alone in That Room
03:23
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You sit alone in that room
Painting your youth
On a canvas that never really started too clean
You sing alone in that room
Thinking of time well spent
Questioning your regrets
You cry alone in that fucking room
Forgetting and misplacing all the jaded answers
Dreaming of your favorite dancers
You sleep alone in that room
Never one for commitment
You were always the runner
But never had the lungs to make it too far
You quit alone in that room
It's easier to play the tragic escapist
Than to ever admit that you were wrong
Forgetting and misplacing all the jaded answers
Dreaming of your favorite dancers
You're never gonna grow up
You'll end up right back from where you started
Forgetting and misplacing all the jaded answers
Dreaming of your favorite dancers
I'll close the door on my way out
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4. |
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Too far gone
In an empty parking lot
I still want it all
Chances overturned by
Saying sorry too much
At least I'll be remembered for
A little summer passion
Mistakes I've made
Lessons that didn't stick
I won't ever learn
If this is how it ends
I won't ever learn
Can't learn
I shouldn't
Ever learn
Starting over, staying on my own
Until I get deconstructed by all of your smooth talk
Torn to pieces like a ship at sea
Swallowed by the storm
The ocean's never ending casket
Mistakes I've made
Lessons that didn't stick
I won't ever learn
If this is how it ends
I won't ever learn
Can't learn
I shouldn't
Ever learn
Getting better now
Breathing just fine
Let's try this again
When did I lose myself?
Mistakes I've made
Lessons that didn't stick
I won't ever learn
If this is how it ends
I won't ever learn
Can't learn
I shouldn't
Ever learn
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5. |
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Lay me out to waste
A curious ticket for one
I know I have bad taste
In the paths that I take
The sensation of mistakes
Discarding all my passions for the taste of someone new
No need to pretend anymore
When your foot is already out the door, out the door
Discarding all my passions for the taste of someone new
Reminders buried in ice
Open it up, open it up
Everyone is afraid of opening up
So close it up
So close it up
Discarding all my passions for the taste of someone new
No need to pretend anymore
When your foot is already out the door, out the door
Discarding all my passions for the taste of someone new
Little mischievous moon, flavor for two
Never thought it would hurt like this
But I always knew it would end like this
Discarding all my passions for the taste of someone new
No need to pretend anymore
When your foot is already out the door, out the door
Discarding all my passions for the taste of someone new
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6. |
Give Up
04:08
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Give up on yourself now
Give up everything you know
It's time I let you know
That everyone around you is changing for the better
It's time I'm moving on
Today I finally found a way out
No regrets
Today I finally felt adequate
Place your bets
Give up everything you know
Give up on yourself now
It's time I let you know
That everyone around you stopped listening to your stories
Dishonesty is not a marathon
Today I finally found a way out
No regrets
Today I finally felt adequate
Place your bets
When will you catch on?
It's not nostalgia if you live it every day
Go on, go on, sing us one more sad song
So long, so long, keep running away
You may be tragic, but you're not fucking Hemingway
Today I finally found a way out
No regrets
Today I finally felt adequate
Place your bets
Give up everything you know
The strings got cut on this puppet show
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7. |
Drowning
02:58
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I came face to face with my old wounds
Saw them taking shape along the ocean shore
I buried it deep until a daring boyhood bravery
Came back to life
Considered throwing it all away
Just to begin again
Well I'll just hold out hope that one day you may
Come back home
But I shouldn't hold on to something I never even had
These thoughts, they get so romanticized
They may as well be fiction
I hate to leave you this way
Instead of packing a bag full of clothes
I'll fill it with your suffering
These walks alone, searching for some hidden meaning
Seem to only remind me of what I've lost
Instead of what I could gain
I've devoured all your pain, kept it close to my chest
A hand too complete for an obsolete heart
Well if you want me, you could have me
But for now, I'm the places you've forgotten about
I'm the unmarked path
I'm the rain on the outside of the glass
I'm the empty train tracks
I'm the lighthouse no longer in use
I'm the drowning with no lifeguard around
I'm drowning
I shouldn't have gone so far in such deep water
I've done this all to myself
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8. |
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I fit in so well
The optimistic outsider
The great pretender
Taking all the punches
Still embracing the sunrises
I can just drop it
But I have no idea what I am doing
None of us do
But you're such a fantastic actor
You almost had me fooled
Empty spaces
Here's a win for the jaded
Retracing steps
Here's a loss for the optimists
I feel like a kid again
Standing in fear of all these mountains
They all have my best interests
At heart or so they say
I'll take seconds on that
Give me more, oh give me more
I can't get my fill
Are you forgetting where I've been?
Unknown mistakes
I'll keep them close to my chest
Someday I'll share the rest
Good intentions never felt so wrong
Empty spaces
Here's a win for the jaded
Retracing steps
Here's a loss for the optimists
I feel like a kid again
Standing in fear of all these mountains
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9. |
It's Happening Again
03:58
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Trading security for uncertainty
The bed feels so much bigger now
I still play by the rules
But nothing has changed
When did I become the unwanted guest?
Halfway doesn't mean a thing anymore
It's happening to us again
I can't stand it, I can't take it
I can feel myself again, dripping down into the floor
I'm drowning, you're pushing me down
Lift me up, drag me out
Oh how I'd kill for the taste
Of all my old routines
They'd come flooding back so easily
Or at least I'd convince myself somehow
That you're not already gone
It's happening to us again
I can't stand it, I can't take it
I can feel myself again, dripping down into the floor
Let's collect all our disenchanted promises
I promise I'm not keeping score, not anymore
Maybe I never was and you were never really here
It's happening to us again
I can't stand it, I can't take it
I can feel myself again, dripping down into the floor
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10. |
Behind This Neon Glow
05:29
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Can't make them all happy
Spent too long playing love's lackey
Everyone thinks I'm one disappointment away from falling apart
But trust in me, I excel in the abstract art of reconstructing a broken heart
Maybe I'll never learn, but I'll never grow
If the best I can give is a cameo behind this neon glow
I'll take my chance, engage in this dance, and wonder how at first glance...
I don't love like I used to
But don't give up on me
'Cus I won't give up on you
Just like everyone else, I'll go my own way
I don't want to always play it safe
It's hard to keep it all in check
When the world's having fun and you just feel like a train wreck
I've stood and watched, an innocent bystander to my own disasters
Give me control, I want happiness back just a little bit faster
It took me a long time to put all the pieces in place
I'm doing just fine everyone, this is my poker face
I sing this just in case
I don't love like I used to
But don't give up on me
'Cus I won't give up on you
Hold on for tomorrow
Be quiet, turn up the radio
I'm searching for you in the audio
Oh it's such a painful time to pretend
I don't love like I used to
But don't give up on me
'Cus I won't give up on you
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11. |
Take Your Heart
03:36
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For those who are second guessing
The flicker of the fire needs addressing
Don't keep repressing what you wish you were professing
It's bigger than a Phantom Thieves confession
Enough is enough I hope you can say
Tried to find a way to let it all out
Yeah I've given up enough
I won't give up anymore
Tried to find a way to make it al count
Yeah I've sat and watched enough
I won't let life pass me by
Open roads, open hearts
I always knew that I could hit the mark
Part time optimist, but a full time romantic
It's better than some cynical oppression
I knew I wouldn't be stuck this way
It's time we play for keeps
Tried to find a way to let it all out
Yeah I've given up enough
I won't give up anymore
Tried to find a way to make it al count
Yeah I've sat and watched enough
I won't let life pass me by
I've found something more
I can breathe clean again
A prelude to a perfect sky
Tried to find a way to let it all out
Yeah I've given up enough
I won't give up anymore
Tried to find a way to make it al count
Yeah I've sat and watched enough
I won't let life pass me by
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12. |
Scorpio Blood
03:41
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Two as one
The dreamer and the cynic
Misery loves company
But I had to leave
You placed yourself on a pedestal
But never really found the footing
Tried to keep us all down below
But let me up, I was never meant for you
How could you see this when you were so lost?
A boy won't always find his way
just because he has a guiding hand
I'm giving up, I'm giving up on you
And everything we once knew
They're lessons for the both of us
But let me up, I was never meant for you
How could you see this when you were so lost?
You sign with false claims
Backtracking on every near mistake
I'll sign with my life
Scorpio blood
But let me up, I was never meant for you
How could you see this when you were so lost?
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13. |
I'd Rather Be...
04:31
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Don't say it's over now
I'd rather be anywhere else but here
Don't hold it back now
I'd rather be chasing comfort tonight
I'd rather be anywhere without you
No, I'd rather be everywhere together
No, I'd rather be somewhere you're not, now
I'd rather be buried deep together
No, I'd rather be on another planet
No, I'd rather be like Rocky & Adrian
Don't give it up now
I'd rather be patching up my old scars
Don't wait for mercy now
I'd rather be claiming I'm fine alone
I'd rather be anywhere without you
No, I'd rather be everywhere together
No, I'd rather be somewhere you're not, now
I'd rather be buried deep together
No, I'd rather be on another planet
No, I'd rather be like Rocky & Adrian
I've got a million more reasons to not make up my mind
You've got a little habit of hiding the truth
I'd rather be anywhere without you
No, I'd rather be everywhere together
No, I'd rather be somewhere you're not, now
I'd rather be buried deep together
No, I'd rather be on another planet
No, I'd rather be like Rocky & Adrian
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14. |
To Begin Again
03:22
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Shifting regret
Or embracing the shame
It makes no difference
If you're so lost
I've gone my own way now
Yet here we are
Both keeping quiet alone
To begin again
Just like the first time
I'm no worse for wear
But it's where I'm headed
That has me feeling so alive
That has me feeling so alive
I'll tread lightly so don't wait up
You've cut the ties but don't let go
I've cut the memories
I can't ever take it slow
To begin again
Just like the first time
I'm no worse for wear
But it's where I'm headed
That has me feeling so alive
That has me feeling so alive
Everyone thinks they're exempt
Until they're on
The outside looking in
You knew all along
Or at least I think you did
Now as the ash settles
With the dust
A trophy of my failure
I'll remember you as you never were
To begin again
Just like the first time
I'm no worse for wear
But it's where I'm headed
That has me feeling so alive
That has me feeling so alive
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15. |
Summer
03:32
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You touch me
I need it
I just want you to myself
I think that I need to
Make a confession 'cus it's
Taking over like demonic possession
I think that it's like demonic possession
I've fallen deep in love again
I don't know how I do it
Into the waves I fell
I've pulled you down with me into it
I'll pull you down in this obsession
And I'll make us drown
This is not summer love
This is not summer lovin'
You can call me a creep
But it won't really matter
Go to town every time
Like a God damn freak
I've fallen deep in love again
I don't know how I do it
Into the waves I fell
I've pulled you down with me into it
I'll pull you down in this obsession
And I'll make us drown
This is not summer love
This is not summer lovin'
I have to have you
I need to have you
I've fallen deep in love again
I don't know how I do it
Into the waves I fell
I've pulled you down with me into it
I'll pull you down in this obsession
And I'll make us drown
This is not summer love
This is not summer lovin'
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16. |
Two Brokenhearted Strays
04:37
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I've got a death wish when it comes to matters of the heart
I keep throwing myself head first into the fire
Into situations that can only eat me alive
But life is romantic and I'm tired of feeling so tragic
Let's give this a go, just you and I
We'll figure it out along the way
Two brokenhearted strays
If it all goes south I'll tell myself
I should have known better
But until then, take my hand
Let's climb inside this little world we built together
and we can stay there where it's warm
We're resisting the temptation
Resisting the urge to use our hearts
Out of fear from our past mistakes
We didn't ask for this life
Let's give this a go, just you and I
We'll figure it out along the way
Two brokenhearted strays
If it all goes south I'll tell myself
I should have known better
But until then, take my hand
So now I'm tossing the matches
I can't set fire to these fears
Life has been unkind to you over the years
So take my hand, let's give this a go
Let's give this a go, just you and I
We'll figure it out along the way
Two brokenhearted strays
If it all goes south I'll tell myself
I should have known better
But until then, take my hand
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17. |
St. Augustine
05:04
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Took a walk in St. Augustine
November, don't make me break
Maybe I don't need to
But I want to carry this weight
November, take away her heartache
I'd drag around that anchor for you
If you'd let me
I tried to fill the void
To show that I get it too
When you feel so ruined
It's hard for anyone to get through
When I hear her hollow voice
I think back to who we used to be
We all used to be so carefree
Our names on the marquee
But now it's so plain to see
I'm dying to be a nominee to join in your misery
Took a walk in St. Augustine
Felt like no matter how much
We tried to wash our hands of the past
They never felt clean
I got so swept up in my fantasies
And before I knew it I was feeling eighteen
I'll try not to hide behind metaphors
Please let me play editor to the script of the questioner
Where can I fit in?
Where do we begin?
How come I'm always the one
To take it on the chin
I'm jaded, but still holding on
Give me a minute
To sort through all the things
I'm considering expanding upon
I feel a crushing loneliness
So I'm fighting against becoming withdrawn
You may be hurt, but not all is gone
Not all is gone
Took a walk in St. Augustine
Tried to find a way to ease it all away
Dreamt of yesterday
And how I wished we could turn back time
But I swallowed my pride
It's all so fucking cliche
It's all so fucking cliche
I'll try to forget about the endless summer
And go back home alone, wondering of all the things
That could have been
We could have been
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18. |
Like We Have All Night
04:09
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I was feeling like a contender
Thoughts of failure, return to sender
Tonight's my chance, I'm in style
But the movies get it wrong every once in a while
1 2 3 baby eyes on me
She said, we don't have all night
She was moving like a pro
I wanted to go slow
I just didn't have the time
1 2 3 baby hands on me
She said, like we've got all night
Yeah, sweet talking at the bar
Now we're kissin' in her car
How I wish she could be mine
That's it, it's over, there goes my chance
Now it's time to play the ghost dance
The kiss of death, back to the numbers game
One less claim to fame and a stain on my name
1 2 3 baby eyes on me
She said, we don't have all night
She was moving like a pro
I wanted to go slow
I just didn't have the time
1 2 3 baby hands on me
She said, like we've got all night
Yeah, sweet talking at the bar
Now we're kissin' in her car
How I wish she could be mine
But I'll bet you'll feel regret
When it's morning and you
Wake up to the smell of cigarettes and sweat
I may have tried to warn you but you already knew
You're gonna start to miss me out of the blue
Now we're right back where we started
Yet it still feels so new
1 2 3 baby eyes on me
She said, we don't have all night
She was moving like a pro
I wanted to go slow
I just didn't have the time
1 2 3 baby hands on me
She said, like we've got all night
Yeah, sweet talking at the bar
Now we're kissin' in her car
How I wish she could be mine
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19. |
A Love Worth Dying For
04:09
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Overstepped all my regrets
So I could try again
What do I have to do to play for keeps?
From my point of view
My intentions always pointed toward you
I'd do anything to get through
I once had a dream, it was unclear
But now I know
I've finally found a love worth dying for
Tell me now, what do I have to do?
To keep you around
Can't find the words, the proper noun
We found some common ground
Waited till sundown to say it all
The whole crowd turned to a ghost town
I once had a dream, it was unclear
But now I know
I've finally found a love worth dying for
Our hopes for love got lost in burial grounds
But that was then and you are now
I knew I was always waiting for you
A chance at something true, so overdue
Second chances have me feeling new
So let's put heartbreak in the rear view
I once had a dream, it was unclear
But now I know
I've finally found a love worth dying for
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20. |
Swimming in the Static
03:24
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Fast forward to the ending
It's quiet drives down the coast line
A twisted cigarette, the fear of regret
A bitter wind and an empty coffee cup
You can't stop the fall of it all
The last of the loving
Turn back the hands you've still got time
Tell fate to hit pause one last time
One last chance to make it all count
The last of the loving
A frosted apartment window
Fogging up with best wishes
Empty kisses and it's you that's really missing
Slow down, plant your feet
It's time to dig deep
This top five isn't finished yet
The last of the loving
Turn back the hands you've still got time
Tell fate to hit pause one last time
One last chance to make it all count
The last of the loving
Swimming in the static
We held on tightly
The rush of it all
The last of the loving
Turn back the hands you've still got time
Tell fate to hit pause one last time
One last chance to make it all count
The last of the loving
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21. |
I Have it All
03:25
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The ups, the downs
I hit the ground
Broken inside
I can't give up now
Finding my way
Reclaiming my youth
Blinding myself from the truth
It's hard, so hard
Not to ignore
Everything I was, everything I am
Getting lost in love, who would have thought?
I have it all (Like I knew I would)
I have it all (I won't dare forget)
Why is it easier to fall back in love?
I haven't been happier, a prelude
The lush, the lust
A summer romance
The awkward dance
A poorly timed kiss
I know what to do
Standing in front of you
I can't fight this feeling
I know what I want
Stuck in the past, what's the point?
I have it all (Like I knew I would)
I have it all (I won't dare forget)
Why is it easier to fall back in love?
I haven't been happier, a prelude
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